The past weeks where exciting with a lot of new things to learn and master. A new job entered my life. So did some painful changes in my body. A new blood test showed that the anti-thyroid-peroxidase antibodies increased unfortunately and my left leg started to swell. The longer the more and with very painful inflammations too. Today I had my next coaching session and new horizons on a higher plane occurred.
The changes in my life, thus being the new job and following a new food pattern puzzle the female ancestor line. Old fears re-entered, giving me a hard time, especially the past days and the kidney energy. The ancestor line is not amused.The fact that I have a job and working on letting go of the old pattern of doing all and everything absolutely perfect. There is that voice who is telling me every little fault I may make repeating it over and over again, driving me crazy. The realization brought back some old childhood memories when I had to be perfect from the very beginning. Now as an adult woman, I want to live without this very old pattern the female line kept for ages: mothers who live their life through the daughter born in the next generation. To help the body cope with this process I have to use natrium muriaticum.
This was not the core of the problem – more diving necessary….. The increased anti-thyroid-peroxidase antibodies came into picture. It’s an auto immune disease. Auto immune disease occur, when one has no unconditional trust and faith in oneself like children have before it is shut down. If one does not trust that it is safe to have this trust, which give immunity, the body start to build an unhealthy immune system. In my case the unconditional trust and faith in myself was broken early in my life and suddenly a past life came back to mind when faith in my knowing became my death. But this issue was healed and the core problem was to be found on a higher plane.
There is old fear about having faith and trust in myself surplus the fear to use my abilities. It still does not feel safe and back then I put it into a tiny closet and locked it up. That felt safe back then but it is not because I do not get the nutrition I need. The fears around this are the reason the body is thinking that it is not immune and start making an unhealthy immune system. In my case the anti-thyroid-peroxidase antibodies. Blood type O persons have, beside other diseases, the chance to start problems with the thyroid. The thyroid tool I made quite some time ago, was not complete.
During my session, a vision came up by my coach of the tiny closet and that it has to be unlocked. At that point I said: “I need the key! ” and the vision of that key came up – ” A big key, it is a big key! Seems illogical, seeing the tiny closet but the key is big.”
“I already have found it although there has to be some work done on it.” and I took the branch, I found in the woods last weekend, into my hands. “Yes, that’s the one!” Here I had to laugh, because if this was the missing item for the thyroid tool than the key was to big and the tool must be implemented on the key in some way. My coach laughed too. “That’s right dear. Work for the weekend with the full moon.”
The weekend will be a hard work weekend. Curious what will come up when working on the key.