Proces painting

As I already thought, my grandmother from mother’s side is involved in the process seen in the paintings of the Lady of the Lake in the post From eye to Avalon.  Had send a request to get her birth certificate in March to have a deeper look at Grandmother. That arrived April, 29. Have been investigating Grandmother with all I can and got a pretty good picture of how she was, how she could have been and why her life was as it was. Simultaneously I got a request to forward a flyer from a friend of a friend who work with a guide and channel messages to your questions. Tried it first, because I want to be sure its worth while. That message arrived May, 4. Some tears but also grumpiness came up. Yesterday I came across the full moon article by Nadia Gilchrist
in which was mentioned that the message one received on May, 4, is part of the full moon, thus the channeling.

Sunday I had already the feeling I had to paint and yesterday bought a big canvas. This afternoon with the full moon I painted. Here it is.

Today, Sunday May 10, followed the feeling that the painting has to change. Removed the feathers and dripped with white all around the painting – but still – this is work in progress I suppose.

Update May 15, 2020:

Out of the blue there suddenly was the ignition to implement the next step to the painting…..

Maybe its Sunday who does it. Today, Sunday, May 17, 2020 I changed the painting again. The middle was annoying – now its a spiral.

Animal Totem drawing day

Yesterday had a lot of drawing challenges. 1: @StudioTeaBreak ‘s Monday #MythicalMashup with DRAGON + TOWER, 2: @AnimalAlphabets #MythicalAlphabet animal for J – Jasconius and we had World Tapir Day. Started with the Jasconius because I felt most attracted to this myth and of course as a turtle.

Jasconius – a fabled sea creature, variously described as a large whale or vast sea turtle with huge spines on the ridge of its back. It is always described as being huge where it is often mistaken for an island and appears to be rocky with crevices and valleys with trees and greenery and having sand dunes all over it.

Turtle – Symbol of the world, of the Earth, Ability to stay grounded, even in moments of disturbances and chaos, slowing down, pacing yourself, determination, persistence, emotional strength and understanding and ancient wisdom

And okay, because my Chinese sign is Dragon – lets draw that dragon having a good time resting on the balcony of a tower.

The Tapir was the last to draw. First I had no intention to do so. But Tapir as an animal totem has much to offer. Didn’t know that one of it’s totem powers is awaken to your magical power. Suits my current inner development so let’s do it. I intuitively drew the tapir with a red vest. The magicians colors are black/red. So now I know why.

Tapir’s wisdom include: toughness, understanding shyness, longevity, connection to the horse and rhinoceros, gentleness, ability to remain unchanged by time, magic.

I use what comes my way as a sign or metaphor, so it was a busy day yesterday.

From eye to Avalon

Stumbled upon this extra information about the Full Moon April, 8 and it rang a bell somehow.

But first things first. Two weeks ago my neighbor asked me what happened to my left eye. Me having no idea that there was something wrong asked the reason for her question. “it’s all bloody.” Hadn’t noticed in the morning. Must have happened during sleep. Nothing happens without a reason so I looked it up. Being to hard on oneself mixed with unconscious fear. So unconscious, I thought, I even didn’t notice the deep dark red left eye.

We have the Corona Pandemic which is also related, among abuse of power and money or having a victim consciousness, to fear. Fear has an impact on the lungs so I made an appointment with my personal coach.

The message that came through was: ” It’s not fear in the common sense. It’s a family line thing, a fear from way back that went subcutaneously and became suspicion – of people. Originated during the fall of Avalon, went through the black Plague in Venice. Back then the thoughts were: all good is destroyed and all mysticism went locked away – it’s not livable. Groups of people, mysticism, faith and intuitive living got suppressed.”

The hints were already there. The drawing challenge of the knights of the round table and Corona virus I had a whale of a time with. And for another drawing challenge I used my shamanic Venice lady.

This morning the drawing challenge of the Lady of the Lake connected to Avalon too. So it was quite clear that by painting the lady of the Lake, I would be able to open the lock of all spirituality, mysticism, intuition, the other way of living and gaining knowledge again.

Drew two Ladies of the Lake – one for the drawing challenge on Twitter. Afterwards the urge to paint another Lady of the Lake. The one with the sword – giving back strength to the locked themes. The other is painted intuitively – pure water running up and down again with love.

Comment by my coach when seeing the paintings: the first make the break through, the second helps to flow again.

I think it would be good to draw the #AnimalAlphabets Mythical Ijiraq who is a real #shapeshifter and transformation in Inuit mythology.

Spiritual Spring Cleaning

I had ordered the writing of Ruth Siegenthaler Das Jahr 2020 – ein epochales Übergangsjahr that gave deep insights into the upcoming months and what to expect and to do. Worth the while reading it, you can order it in the shop of Ruth Siegenthaler.

Jupiter and Pluto are now figuratively initiating a final cleaning by asking us to clear up all the doubts and life lies and to face all the consequences of the truth as it presents itself

A spiritual spring cleaning. Furthermore, among other actions, we go back looking at our inner child and our relation to mother and what is really true. Mother – could write books about all the healing I already faced around my relationship with mother but also with father.

Yesterday a new post by Astrobutterfly was in my mail. Headline was Chiron the wounded healer and the first thought was – not again ….Curious as I am I opened the post nevertheless and found new information.

The Wounded Healer Generation – If you are born between 1950 and 1989 you have Chiron opposite Uranus in your chart!

If a whole generation has this opposition in their natal chart, it must have quite some meaning so I read the post. Interesting indeed. Next question – what does it mean within my personal system and how does it fit into all I already know about me, my past and my purpose in this life?
Came along some interesting websites with more information.

Chiron in houses and sign

Chiron natal aspects

Chiron opposition Uranus

You find your personal information there, if you have your natal chart information where your Chiron and Uranus placements are.

When I learned something during my inner soul journey than it is that everything we meet in life is by our own soul choice to learn the lessons we wanted to learn this time around. Our ‘negative ‘ side attracts some negative experiences so we can learn to move to more positive actions and attract positive people in our life. All children complain and ramble about their youth, their family and their parents, mother or father or both. Necessary to make the break and move into your own life, learn about who you are. Approximately around your 30’s you turn around and have a good look at your ancestral linage.

Is it true what you thought about your parents? Is it true that your experiences in life, your sickness and your mental state is the fault of your family? It isn’t but it takes a lot of guts to let go of your children’s vision of reality and take the truth about you. Parents treat each and every child differently and each and every child in a family complains about other things. Parents do their job as promised long before you were born. When you finally are able to see the true you with all negative and positive you can clearly see the pattern in your family and ancestral linage. Back to Chiron.

My Chiron is in my 10th house in Capricorn and Uranus in my 5th house in Cancer.

information about the houses in Dutch

information about the houses in English

Chiron – Uranus

Core belief: I am different, I don’t belong

Chiron Uranus has a tremendous fear of standing out, a fear of being too unique, too different, too eccentric. The core belief here is “I don’t belong”, and so despite unique gifts and eccentricities which make the person quite talented, there is a consistent reluctance in being oneself, in all of its individuality, as the core belief is that if the person truly shows who they are, they will be ostracized. A Chiron – Uranus person is looking to heal this core belief and display their Uranian gifts, as it is truly by standing out and accepting to be “singled out”, that they will experience a healing of their Chiron.  https://www.lookupthestars.com/post/chiron-in-aspect-in-the-natal-chart

It is true that I was not seen or heard when young. Even when pregnant with me, mother denied being pregnant, the very existing of me, and what I learned later in life, my twin brother who died in the womb during pregnancy. My parents died young. Grandmother was the soothing influence, as were other elderly people in our neighborhood. It is true that I had to struggle to find my place in society. My father did not support me. Took me years to finally know what my purpose in life is and tell it. I disgust people who abuse their authority. I was afraid of the police as a kid. I was forced to follow the ancestral path of being a local government official of the Municipality of Cologne. My father and grandfather worked for the German Postal Service. This was supposed to be a secure job til all eternity. Ultimately life’s experiences forced me to quit the job, sell the family house and I even emigrated to put distance to whatever were. I know and experienced that my calling and purpose in life lies in the field of healing. I am a shaman by nature. In former life’s I worked with herbs. Still have to recall all this knowledge.  I love nature, animals and children to work with. Regarding my parents, I now can see by this final knowledge about Chiron in opposition to Uranus a last missing link to let go of the last bit of anger towards my parents and myself.

Up to now I had resentments about myself for not being where I have to be: a fully working shaman. My truth. We all finally come home, home to ourselves in gratitude and love to our family who gave us life and lessons we needed to learn and break free into the new future.

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Next sequel

October, 9, 2014 I painted this:

Sunday, February 9, 2020 I jammed with Henna powder and got this:

They belong together – the Henna Powder Painting is the sequel of the other. Progression.. PS: came around this:

Mercury Rx in Pisces sextile Pallas in Capricorn (12 deg)

This is a continuation of Mercury and Pallas’ first sextile on Feb 9th: “Unstructured ideas are integrated with strategies. The traditional solution is blended with something more whimsical or empathetic. Excellent for grounding hints/dreams in the real world and applying them to something more focused.”

Today, you examine or question the integration of dreams and practical solutions. Look more closely at the whispered translation and be prepared for some revisions. This is not a straightforward process, and it will conclude in April:

Apr 8th: Mercury direct sextile Pallas (26 deg)

Mythical Monster

Another weekly drawing challenge on Twitter comes from @studioteabreak – the mythical Mash-up. This time Monster & Garden tool. Looked up mythological monsters and found, among others, the Inuit AMAROK. Instant attraction and I had to draw it. Thought I cannot do it but hé, look at this. Surprised myself.

Why the attraction and the good feeling about the Amarok? I looked up the Inuit Mythology and found this:

An Aamarok, or Aamaroq, is a gigantic wolf in Inuit mythology. Amarok’s hunt alone. Danish geologist and Greenlandic scholar Hinrich Johannes Rink reported that the Greenlandic Inuit reserve the word amarok exclusively for this legendary wolf, whereas other Arctic peoples use it to refer to any wolf.
In his book Tales and Traditions of the Eskimo, Rink recounts several folk legends that feature the Amarok.

In one tale, a persecuted and physically stunted boy seeks to increase his strength. When he calls out to the lord of strength, an Amarok appears and wrestles him to the ground with its tail. This causes a number of small bones to fall from the boy’s body. The Amarok tells the boy that the bones had prevented his growth; he instructs the boy to return daily in order to develop his strength. After several days of wrestling with the Amarok, the boy is strong enough to overcome three large bears, thus gaining him the esteem of his village.

We all wrestle with our own Amarok – life’s twist and turns and lose some ‘bones’ and shed a skin while doing so. Facing your weaknesses brings insights, experience and wisdom. It makes you stronger by the day. That Mystical drawing challenge wasn’t that far fetched. By wrestling with your demons and life’s curve balls, you also take care of your spiritual garden. Just because you are following your Soul path when doing the right thing.  For me personally, my male energy could use a boost. Beside that I love wolves. The upcoming astrological constellations show that Mars will become prominent…. 

As I already know: what I like or find beautiful I can draw and it’s for a good reason.

The fish

More then a week has passed by without knowing how to make the fish I talked about in my previous blog. Wednesday, January 22, I had an idea for the fin. I covered the roots with transparent foil and glued it together. Scrubbed pastels in blue and white over the fin which stayed due to the glue. To press it tightly together, I used a framed canvas. To my surprise I got a wonderful print.

Wednesday evening I finally got rid of the little long branches that bothered me. Thursday finally the inspiration hit and I started working on the fish.

Today, Saturday 25, the final touches and here is the fish.

This photo placed on a water blue background. Next is the ‘head’ of the fish.