After the painting you see here a long time nothing happened.  This was the way I felt.

During those weeks I made a new tool – the womb with a baby This image has an empty alt attribute; its file name is tak11.jpg

and painted and drew from new art challenges on Twitter. One of them was this one.

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From here the story started again as I learned. Here the transition is to see, the cleaning from the past. Also you see that to the left 2 angels are in close proximity – they are frustrated by the fact that the 4th one, the male part, has to join too. The reason for this lies in the fact of the lost twin-brother during pregnancy and the anger about left alone and clear the job all by myself. After the cleaning the 3 ladies are more united but still on distance to the boy. During pregnancy a lot more happened in the womb of mother I will not tell. Due to this a part of me shut down. Recent scientific research showed that baby do not only take over from mother during the 9 months and also from father even during conception but also send from its own energy to mother if mother is not well.  After all the stress in the womb and a life threatening birth a trauma was manifested and survival strategy took over. Now in joint togetherness like an omelet the parts are feeling helpless on how to go through but they have and with the boy too. That is what the full moon painting of April 16, tells.

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Fun fact was a comment on Twitter by @Ovalfuenf about this painting which was absolutely right as I know now. Even the colors are suiting.

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Omelet : sweet, round, promising: it will come, the beautiful, the new that will be thrown into your lap. Look up, look further, feel. Omelet’s energy gives just the push needed, let feelings flow freely, remove blockages, bring yourself in, let your energy flow freely, joy in one’s own strength, health, purple and yellow joy, step into the meadow of life , in the flow of happiness. Short summery from the book Horn of plenty by Christiane Beerlandt

The anger about the lost twin-brother went into a painting about rage.

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Today I tried the first step through but are left with a feeling that this is not completely it. So I suppose there will be another one coming through.


 Hope dies last.

Today again a zoom-meeting of https://bearwithme.today/. After the first exercise I had the feeling of a pillar vertical through me and the word STILL. We sat down to write it down and then scribble around the word whatever your hand wanted to do. I choose the colors blindly and let my hand have its way.

Second time the exercise in reverse. The word await came up and then we had to choose a bear and an owl going with it from photos shown to us.

Surprisingly we all choose the same bear and owl although drawn with other surrounding and word. But as a matter of fact it seemed we are all awaiting something…..After the meeting I worked a bit on my drawings and put them together because that made sense to me.


Bear & owl

Today I did the Constant Bear and the Looking Owl on my own without the group of https://bearwithme.today/ . The owl was sitting on the left arm of the bear at the end. They both said hi while I was doing the exercise. Afterwards I tried to draw what I saw. Here is the exercise

Tao, Yin Yang Breath and the Constant Bear and the Looking Owl

Here my bear with owl.

Again a meeting to do the bear & owl with a group again. After the first part with the bear & owl exercise I saw my womb and there was the word YOU. We sat down to wrote our word and than making the first drawing. Did that with my eyes closed and to my surprise it was a bit of the womb.

The second time we do the exercise backwards. Wait if there is a word or a picture coming up. My word were TOGETHER. We sat down again to draw one of the bears shown that suited either the word or the drawing and after that one of the owls shown. I like to do all the exercise on the same paper.

The bear steady holds the womb like a flower and the wisdom owl is in the womb – her home base.

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The 1st time I joined the ‘ bear with me ‘

You do Tai Chi exercise bear & owl look if a word comes up and write down after the exercise and draw what your hands want. Then again exercise, this time backwards and see if another word or image comes up – then write it down or draw.

After that, you get pictures of bear and draw the one that suites your word and then you get owl pictures and draw the one that suites. ‘No word’ came up and my hand started drawing lines.

After the second time of exercise I saw the red space and painted it over the lines. Than the bear and after that the owl. The owl is landing and the bear is underway. The red space is not a sun but the 1st chakra. Why? During the exercise there was the hurt and action.

Here is my drawing.



Under Attack



Yesterday evening was, once again, a rare one. With dusk I fell quiet, a tense feeling came up. Felt burdensome and after a few hours in this feeling suddenly the urge to paint. With both hands, choosing the colors and where to put them without looking and let the hands choose their way. Here the result. Have to feel that through.



Emotion Frequency


The sister of my friend Hilde, https://www.instagram.com/from.adifferentrealm , found a big branch and gave it to her with the message that this branch was for her but in case she felt so, she had to pass it through. So that is how I got it to work on after Hilde cleaned it inside out, dried it and did already some work on it.

I started sanding and a lot of parts started to fall off and this is what came out at last.

Cleaned it again and let dry. Yesterday I started the coloring, this morning the last finishing touches and here it is – Birth .

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