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I had ordered the writing of Ruth Siegenthaler Das Jahr 2020 – ein epochales Übergangsjahr that gave deep insights into the upcoming months and what to expect and to do. Worth the while reading it, you can order it in the shop of Ruth Siegenthaler.

Jupiter and Pluto are now figuratively initiating a final cleaning by asking us to clear up all the doubts and life lies and to face all the consequences of the truth as it presents itself

A spiritual spring cleaning. Furthermore, among other actions, we go back looking at our inner child and our relation to mother and what is really true. Mother – could write books about all the healing I already faced around my relationship with mother but also with father.

Yesterday a new post by Astrobutterfly was in my mail. Headline was Chiron the wounded healer and the first thought was – not again ….Curious as I am I opened the post nevertheless and found new information.

The Wounded Healer Generation – If you are born between 1950 and 1989 you have Chiron opposite Uranus in your chart!

If a whole generation has this opposition in their natal chart, it must have quite some meaning so I read the post. Interesting indeed. Next question – what does it mean within my personal system and how does it fit into all I already know about me, my past and my purpose in this life?
Came along some interesting websites with more information.

Chiron in houses and sign

Chiron natal aspects

Chiron opposition Uranus

You find your personal information there, if you have your natal chart information where your Chiron and Uranus placements are.

When I learned something during my inner soul journey than it is that everything we meet in life is by our own soul choice to learn the lessons we wanted to learn this time around. Our ‘negative ‘ side attracts some negative experiences so we can learn to move to more positive actions and attract positive people in our life. All children complain and ramble about their youth, their family and their parents, mother or father or both. Necessary to make the break and move into your own life, learn about who you are. Approximately around your 30’s you turn around and have a good look at your ancestral linage.

Is it true what you thought about your parents? Is it true that your experiences in life, your sickness and your mental state is the fault of your family? It isn’t but it takes a lot of guts to let go of your children’s vision of reality and take the truth about you. Parents treat each and every child differently and each and every child in a family complains about other things. Parents do their job as promised long before you were born. When you finally are able to see the true you with all negative and positive you can clearly see the pattern in your family and ancestral linage. Back to Chiron.

My Chiron is in my 10th house in Capricorn and Uranus in my 5th house in Cancer.

information about the houses in Dutch

information about the houses in English

Chiron – Uranus

Core belief: I am different, I don’t belong

Chiron Uranus has a tremendous fear of standing out, a fear of being too unique, too different, too eccentric. The core belief here is “I don’t belong”, and so despite unique gifts and eccentricities which make the person quite talented, there is a consistent reluctance in being oneself, in all of its individuality, as the core belief is that if the person truly shows who they are, they will be ostracized. A Chiron – Uranus person is looking to heal this core belief and display their Uranian gifts, as it is truly by standing out and accepting to be “singled out”, that they will experience a healing of their Chiron.  https://www.lookupthestars.com/post/chiron-in-aspect-in-the-natal-chart

It is true that I was not seen or heard when young. Even when pregnant with me, mother denied being pregnant, the very existing of me, and what I learned later in life, my twin brother who died in the womb during pregnancy. My parents died young. Grandmother was the soothing influence, as were other elderly people in our neighborhood. It is true that I had to struggle to find my place in society. My father did not support me. Took me years to finally know what my purpose in life is and tell it. I disgust people who abuse their authority. I was afraid of the police as a kid. I was forced to follow the ancestral path of being a local government official of the Municipality of Cologne. My father and grandfather worked for the German Postal Service. This was supposed to be a secure job til all eternity. Ultimately life’s experiences forced me to quit the job, sell the family house and I even emigrated to put distance to whatever were. I know and experienced that my calling and purpose in life lies in the field of healing. I am a shaman by nature. In former life’s I worked with herbs. Still have to recall all this knowledge.  I love nature, animals and children to work with. Regarding my parents, I now can see by this final knowledge about Chiron in opposition to Uranus a last missing link to let go of the last bit of anger towards my parents and myself.

Up to now I had resentments about myself for not being where I have to be: a fully working shaman. My truth. We all finally come home, home to ourselves in gratitude and love to our family who gave us life and lessons we needed to learn and break free into the new future.

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Next sequel

October, 9, 2014 I painted this:

Sunday, February 9, 2020 I jammed with Henna powder and got this:

They belong together – the Henna Powder Painting is the sequel of the other. Progression.. PS: came around this:

Mercury Rx in Pisces sextile Pallas in Capricorn (12 deg)

This is a continuation of Mercury and Pallas’ first sextile on Feb 9th: “Unstructured ideas are integrated with strategies. The traditional solution is blended with something more whimsical or empathetic. Excellent for grounding hints/dreams in the real world and applying them to something more focused.”

Today, you examine or question the integration of dreams and practical solutions. Look more closely at the whispered translation and be prepared for some revisions. This is not a straightforward process, and it will conclude in April:

Apr 8th: Mercury direct sextile Pallas (26 deg)

Another weekly drawing challenge on Twitter comes from @studioteabreak – the mythical Mash-up. This time Monster & Garden tool. Looked up mythological monsters and found, among others, the Inuit AMAROK. Instant attraction and I had to draw it. Thought I cannot do it but hé, look at this. Surprised myself.

Why the attraction and the good feeling about the Amarok? I looked up the Inuit Mythology and found this:

An Aamarok, or Aamaroq, is a gigantic wolf in Inuit mythology. Amarok’s hunt alone. Danish geologist and Greenlandic scholar Hinrich Johannes Rink reported that the Greenlandic Inuit reserve the word amarok exclusively for this legendary wolf, whereas other Arctic peoples use it to refer to any wolf.
In his book Tales and Traditions of the Eskimo, Rink recounts several folk legends that feature the Amarok.

In one tale, a persecuted and physically stunted boy seeks to increase his strength. When he calls out to the lord of strength, an Amarok appears and wrestles him to the ground with its tail. This causes a number of small bones to fall from the boy’s body. The Amarok tells the boy that the bones had prevented his growth; he instructs the boy to return daily in order to develop his strength. After several days of wrestling with the Amarok, the boy is strong enough to overcome three large bears, thus gaining him the esteem of his village.

We all wrestle with our own Amarok – life’s twist and turns and lose some ‘bones’ and shed a skin while doing so. Facing your weaknesses brings insights, experience and wisdom. It makes you stronger by the day. That Mystical drawing challenge wasn’t that far fetched. By wrestling with your demons and life’s curve balls, you also take care of your spiritual garden. Just because you are following your Soul path when doing the right thing.  For me personally, my male energy could use a boost. Beside that I love wolves. The upcoming astrological constellations show that Mars will become prominent…. 

As I already know: what I like or find beautiful I can draw and it’s for a good reason.

The fish

More then a week has passed by without knowing how to make the fish I talked about in my previous blog. Wednesday, January 22, I had an idea for the fin. I covered the roots with transparent foil and glued it together. Scrubbed pastels in blue and white over the fin which stayed due to the glue. To press it tightly together, I used a framed canvas. To my surprise I got a wonderful print.

Wednesday evening I finally got rid of the little long branches that bothered me. Thursday finally the inspiration hit and I started working on the fish.

Today, Saturday 25, the final touches and here is the fish.

This photo placed on a water blue background. Next is the ‘head’ of the fish.

conclusions

Let’s start with the paintings of  New Years Eve Rorschachtest   and    January 1st Rorschachtest

Except the dancing, which is true, there is the holy matrimony of inner woman and man. Also right in the middle, there is the spine. Left and right, down and above, everything comes together as it is supposed to be within. The January 1st color jamming shows something more in-depth and tells about layers. The comment made by @kritzelich is right, concerning the chicken. Concerning the owl, its not but a fish.Here the symbolism of both.

When the chicken spirit crosses your path, know that it brings good luck and prosperity, indicates overall good health for you and your loved ones. The chicken totem is your potent protector when it comes to negative energies that threaten to enter your world

Fish
When fish spirit comes into your life, it gives you a very powerful connection with the Water element.
This is the element of mystery and creativity. The fish spirit animal plays an important role in your subconscious. It helps you to make powerful decisions that affect your waking life in a very positive way.
The world below carries a lot of mystery. The fish spirit guide helps you to dig beneath the surface to conceal knowledge that is usually not seen.
For you, the fish is a symbol of what’s obscure on your life. These things prevail in most of your activities.
The fish spirit water enhances your level of fertility and femininity. Also, it enables you to enjoy prosperity and good luck.

The symbolism connected to my inner reality means that the chicken was set as disguise and protection for the spiritual fish until the fish is strong enough to come to the fore. He is looking in the mirror and sees the chicken he is not.Also suiting the chicken spirit connection to the bunch of fears I had when really young and my victim mentality because chicken were seen as holy and used as offer to the gods.It is time now to let go of the chicken (shit) shield and come to terms with the fish, my real me. I have to make a fish tool. The branches I happened to find as usual right in time.

Now we come to the drawing and painting you can see in Saturn-Pluto-Conjunction
Lets start with the symbolism of the penguin and the whale.

Whale  is the symbol of good luck. It symbolizes limitless creativity that will make all your biggest dreams possible.  The whale represents your intuition and awareness that guide you to make the best decisions. The whale is commonly associated with emotion, inner truth, and creativity.
Physical and emotional healing
Keeper of history
Importance of family and community
Emotional rebirth
Peaceful strength
Communication

Penguin’s symbolism The period of darkness that you’ve been experiencing is now ending. There is light at the end of this tunnel!
Penguin is reminding you that although things may seem chaotic right now, there is a definite order in this chaos. Thus it is important to realize that by continually moving forward with your plans and dreams and handling each small piece as it comes up. The most chaotic time always is just before a big breakthrough happens. Just keep flexible and remain centered within yourself so that you can keep moving forward. Believe that you have a good connection between the physical and the spiritual ( painting of New Years Eve) and that you will naturally know what to do next.

As I already assumed, the swollen leg of the penguin is connected to my inner, and unfortunately also outer, reality. My left ankle….the lower leg. There some old fears around the talents of the fish are hiding as well as anger for what could have been but was not, some guilt trip over old faults despite knowing that everybody makes faults during the growing up learning of life route. What has the whale got to do with this? He is not flying by, looking depressed or angry. No, he cannot swim further because there is no doorway yet for the emotional rebirth. This symbolism suites the actual supporting energy’s – we are all on our way through the door to our new us, our new life but don’t find the path yet. That’s how I actually feel, besides a little bit disgruntled.

The grande finale therefore is the painting of the shedding dragon – liberation and freedom.

An inspirational day it was today despite the tension I feel. This morning, after a Twitter drawing challenge, I did a quick minimalist drawing as test. Just curious if I can do it. A penguin and a whale. When seeing what I had drawn, I had to laugh because the two animals look like what is me in real life. The penguin’s left leg a bit swollen and the whale is not amused. Funny remark on Twitter : ” that bird would look surprised if suddenly a fish flew by….damned climate change.”

Had a canvas waiting and the drive to paint kept me waiting. When it finally hit, the painting was ready in no time. All done with eyes closed. Following my hands to choose a color, where to put it and what to do with it. Painted with my hands. Only the finishing touch in gold is done with a brush. I have the feeling that my inner dragon is shedding…..

The first morning of the New Year I messed up colors again to see if there could be new insights to gain.

Two people answered to this one and the predictions are nice.

@kritzelich
A chicken look in the mirror.
Time for reflection and self-awareness.
And if “chicken” is too stupid for you – it could also be an owl

@muschelrauschen
A coati that wallows comfortably in the dirt … Phew … it took me a long time to recognize something. And what does that mean now?

Coati:
Looking after others, being generous with your time and space, foraging, finding wisdom in unexpected places, being highly adaptable, sniffing out the truth, accepting the imposing presence of others, integration and assimilation, physical play.

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