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End and backwards

The following painting I did November, 8. I was not sure if it was a personal process painting. Liked it a lot and had it printed. Framed it and set it infront of the wall with my animal drawings. My thought was – root chakra.

During the night of November 23, I painted another black one for an art challenge. The night and November, 24, I had a mild form of hyperventilation. Something was going on.

The reactions I got when posting the painting this morning were a real inspiration and the remarks from https://www.finenwerk.com/ especially helpful and true. Had a coaching session this afternoon and the painting is, indeed, another process painting I have to work with for a while. I have it printed.

The first painting, strangely enough, is the end of the process. The second painting is blocking it. They have to stand side by side when working with them. Old fear, from ages and this life which got suppressed in this life by my parents, implemented a firm pattern of reaction – fear wasn’t there, acting tough.

Hyena

Another drawing challenge got my attention – the hyena. Not the animal to say its adorable but I wanted to try. Looking up the symbolism afterwards, made clear why I draw one and why it came out looking sweet. The hyena is consistent my inner process.

The Spotted Hyena symbolism, like the Prairie Dog, is a reminder that you must participate in your community. Withdrawal is not an option. Thus you must find ways to get involved and participate in your surroundings healthily and progressively. There is strength in numbers.

Occasionally, the Spotted Hyena symbolism asks you to embrace the feminist energy that is now required by this planet to find balance. For far too long, you have given up a part of yourself to the opposing forces that surround you. Moreover, leadership requires a balance in all areas. Therefore, the Hyena meaning implies that you must take on both the male and the female energies to bring about compromise. If you are male, this means that you will have to get in touch with your feminine side.

Horse Tool

Received two thank-you-presents that were waiting until I do something with them. Got a lot of horse hair and when unpack it, the hair fell into heart shape.

The second present were two ‘Hühnergötter’ or as they are called in different tongues: hag stones, Snake’s eggs, Glain neidr, Adderstanes or Gloine nan Druidh. https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Adder_stone

Combined the two in the larger ‘Hühnergott’ and added a tool I made some time ago. Today I initiated the tool.

Saturday I had my second horse coaching. A gift from two friends. Not much was told about the horses. To my surprise the work would be done by five Icelandic Horses at http://www.comedi-coaching.nl

Last week I had bought one big Icelandspat and 4 small ones – what a coincidence.

The group had two new arrivals in their midst. There was a mare who had problems with here hind legs. She was the first to made contact with me. Followed by a gelding who had back problems some time ago and was recovering. The other three were doing fine.

Like a fine tuned receiver they registered every word I said and reacted with small signs to make clear that it was right what I was saying. Showed my underlying irritations, sadness, despair, anger, reclusion and much more. The coach gently guided me and told me about the signs the horses showed. Took them and me quite some time to fall into movement of the stagnant pent-up energy of ages. I suddenly said:” maybe a sixth horses is needed to get something started.” The coach laughed and answered that a sixth horses is arriving soon.

After quite some time, the first horse went away to take a dump. A second one followed and a third, controlling the others dumps first if everything was seen and put away, than took a dump too. They went frequently to drink and when I said they have to drink to clean up, they reacted with validation. My grandmother was there to help. And finally one of the two new horses came by my left side to stay. She was there to support me and I burst into tears with words: ” Finally someone at my side.” During the whole session all five horses continued eating, some as if their life depended on it. A bit of a funny fact because in my youth, all we ever did was eat, lots of food. Mother was an outstanding cook and my father backed the finest pies and cakes.

At last we spoke about my children. And when telling about the quarrels with one of them, two of the horses got into heavy fight showing anger and aggression, sad moment it was.

Before going away I had to great each horse separately and I did with heartfelt gratitude. Especially the mare with the hind legs problem and the gelding with the back problem. Wanted to do something in return so let my hands do the work. The mare accepted and so did the gelding although for a short time letting me know that I was there for myself and not for him.

The mare had pointed out that there was a healing to be done. We went inside and I got one. At the end I received a special stone which worked in an instant on my heart – the place to be – more specific – the feminie heart on the diaphragm.

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In the evening pain started – the healing on the two horses – their energy had to be cleaned and could finally, on Monday, send back. Now my pain of all that had come to the fore during the horse coaching came and I still have it with me – slowly fading away. Got some interesting information about the fact that I was part of a twin but born alone. On top of that  the way I was born –  a blue baby almost dead due to the umbilical cord around my neck. The insights are tremendous on physical, emotional, mental areas and behavior.
Here are just two of the facts:

1. The alone born twin will be left-handed and/or ambidextrous – the definition of true ambidexterity is being able to do a task equally well with either hand or with both hands at the same time. Funny because I wrote this quite some time ago without knowing the above:
https://redskywalkeronearth.wordpress.com/2019/08/13/left/

2. My love for even numbers

Still processing it all. Many thanks to the horses who worked for and with me helping in my ongoing inner journey. Will go there again when the sixth horse has arrived. After all my name in Chinese says among other things: woman of horse. 

My world

 

Today via LinkedIn I came across a drawing challenge on https://esthervanderham.nl/teken-jouw-wereld/

Great idea to spend a rainy Sunday afternoon with it. Started on A3 and drew with both hands and eyes closed as I like to do. By doing so, one let come out what is inside and not disrupted by thoughts. Its the version of the inner child.

 

Afterwards I took a canvas and again with both hands choosing colors and the place to be, painting with my hands and of course eyes closed. Nothing had to be done to the middle spot.

The past days the bear crossed my path. In words and messages from others and in myself. Was given a gif on Twitter

that reminded me again of a picture I once got from an old dear friend.

Plus it reminded me of a bear tool I made a long time ago. Looked that up and started upgrading it. Implemented the bear tooth I have. Here is bear, the healer of emotions and foundation, the grounding force, confidence and courage.

Furthermore I had to remove some plants and while doing so, a tiny little branch from the stephanotis or Hawaiian wedding flower fell down and I kept it because of its shape. Two weeks ago I bought a Brucit gemstone as I already told in a previous blog. Today the tiny branch and the Brucit had to join forces.

stephanotis derived from the Greek word stephanos’ , meaning ‘crown’. Stephanotis signifies ‘marital bliss’

Both tools are not yet initiated.

Color Card

In a Tweet on Twitter Dory Nierynck shared some of her color card samples, like the ones she use in this workshop

One particular sample card had my attention, so I asked her the meaning of it.

Today she told me about it and I can say – exactly to the point.

1. peace and quiet, faith, breathing needs attention, more depth necessary, use creativity, especially singing, painting, writing – the blue/turquoise field of the card
2. white – soul level, Higher Self points to
3. all earth related things and activities, more movement needed – the red dot
4. the yellow and kind of military green field, yellow the communication, military green -> being more in nature to empty my 3rd chakra and create room there, balance between creation and being in nature
5. my guides are waiting to see me doing so to get ready to work even more with them as I already do.

This example show that a consult with Dory is worthwhile. Here you can contact Dory Nierynck

After a stressful week some silent days were welcome. Stumbled onto quite some info, from outside as well as from the inside. The bells of future are ringing quietly. As energy flows so signs come up to make the message crystal clear. Two gemstones came to my attention and I bought them. There message alone is strong enough. I bought a Brucit and a Selenite.

Brucit:
Break with old negative patterns, walk your own soul path and enjoy life. With Brucite, the sun shines on every aspect of life. A stone of abundance, of the soul and harmony. Provides perseverance, clarity of thought and the necessary peace of mind to make decisions. At the same time it helps with intentions and achieving set goals. A new future brings with it farewell to the old. We often have difficulty with that. Fortunately, the stone also lends a hand here. It helps to say goodbye to that which no longer serves you. https://happy-spirit.nl/

Selenite:

The white Selenite especially suits the heart chakra. Strengthens intuition, clairvoyance and clear knowing. Strong purifying effect on the vegetative nervous system, including the brain. https://www.semoea.nl/

Yesterday I came along the drawing challenge on Twitter: Monocle octopus against hate. Up to now I didn’t like them. But the urge was there so lets try and draw one. Choosing the color was no problem, it had to be purple with a golden monocle. Here it is.

Wondering why I looked up the message of octopus.

Octopus:innovation, dynamics, change, strong intuition, staying on your path.

So all those things entering my life along with the foal’s horse hairs, which came two weeks ago, ring regeneration and renewal. Let the adventure begin.

Tapir

April 28, 2020 I already drew a tapir because of World Tapir Day. Yesterday with the animal-august drawing challenge there the tapir was again. The new one I like best. Different from the first one.

Of course here again its symbolism.

Tapir’s wisdom include: toughness, understanding shyness, longevity, connection to the horse and rhinoceros, gentleness, ability to remain unchanged by time, magic

Integrated

Finally the process paintings came back from framing to be integrated in the practice room. Some paintings were removed, their working is done. Painted the wall and put things into their new place. Peace and quiet.

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