Pushing through

After the painting you see here a long time nothing happened.  This was the way I felt.

During those weeks I made a new tool – the womb with a baby

and painted and drew from new art challenges on Twitter. One of them was this one.

From here the story started again as I learned. Here the transition is to see, the cleaning from the past. Also you see that to the left 2 angels are in close proximity – they are frustrated by the fact that the 4th one, the male part, has to join too. The reason for this lies in the fact of the lost twin-brother during pregnancy and the anger about left alone and clear the job all by myself. After the cleaning the 3 ladies are more united but still on distance to the boy. During pregnancy a lot more happened in the womb of mother I will not tell. Due to this a part of me shut down. Recent scientific research showed that baby do not only take over from mother during the 9 months and also from father even during conception but also send from its own energy to mother if mother is not well.  After all the stress in the womb and a life threatening birth a trauma was manifested and survival strategy took over. Now in joint togetherness like an omelet the parts are feeling helpless on how to go through but they have and with the boy too. That is what the full moon painting of April 16, tells.

Fun fact was a comment on Twitter by @Ovalfuenf about this painting which was absolutely right as I know now. Even the colors are suiting.

Omelet : sweet, round, promising: it will come, the beautiful, the new that will be thrown into your lap. Look up, look further, feel. Omelet’s energy gives just the push needed, let feelings flow freely, remove blockages, bring yourself in, let your energy flow freely, joy in one’s own strength, health, purple and yellow joy, step into the meadow of life , in the flow of happiness. Short summery from the book Horn of plenty by Christiane Beerlandt

The anger about the lost twin-brother went into a painting about rage.

Today I tried the first step through but are left with a feeling that this is not completely it. So I suppose there will be another one coming through.

 

 Hope dies last.