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Cleaning

It’s not only in the title, its done with real cleaning stuff – Blue Wonder cleaner diffuser over turmeric and hobby lacquer in blue, red, white and gold. After that I let it flow in all directions by turning the picture around

Looking at the finished painting – the real cleaning tears came too…..

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This year my Helleborus is blooming like never before. To my surprise I also have a new one, also blooming with lots of flowers in its first year. Why now I asked myself and looked up the meaning of Helleborus. At https://www.spiritoftransformation.com/ I found the essence of Helleborus. All it is supposed to address suites the new era we just entered. Letting go of sorrow, fear, sadness, heart pain and more.

For more information about Helleborus history and medical use look here:

information about hellebores in dutch

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As I wrote here I have to work with the second painting you see there. I did the past days. Yesterday I was busy with another drawing challenge – a winter lake. Not sure how but it had to have a black frame. Found one and pasted it on the water color paper. White glue, pastel chalk, water colors – all in the mix. Finishing touch with icing sugar. Very pleased with the outcome. Something about the painting touched me. Had the feeling it had something to do with the white spot in the black painting. Maybe, slowly but steady, I am going inside and start to see. Not absolutely sure, I asked my coach and she confirmed.

 

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End and backwards

The following painting I did November, 8. I was not sure if it was a personal process painting. Liked it a lot and had it printed. Framed it and set it infront of the wall with my animal drawings. My thought was – root chakra.

During the night of November 23, I painted another black one for an art challenge. The night and November, 24, I had a mild form of hyperventilation. Something was going on.

The reactions I got when posting the painting this morning were a real inspiration and the remarks from https://www.finenwerk.com/ especially helpful and true. Had a coaching session this afternoon and the painting is, indeed, another process painting I have to work with for a while. I have it printed.

The first painting, strangely enough, is the end of the process. The second painting is blocking it. They have to stand side by side when working with them. Old fear, from ages and this life which got suppressed in this life by my parents, implemented a firm pattern of reaction – fear wasn’t there, acting tough.

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Icelandic Horses

Saturday I had my second horse coaching. A gift from two friends. Not much was told about the horses. To my surprise the work would be done by five Icelandic Horses at http://www.comedi-coaching.nl

Last week I had bought one big Icelandspat and 4 small ones – what a coincidence.

The group had two new arrivals in their midst. There was a mare who had problems with here hind legs. She was the first to made contact with me. Followed by a gelding who had back problems some time ago and was recovering. The other three were doing fine.

Like a fine tuned receiver they registered every word I said and reacted with small signs to make clear that it was right what I was saying. Showed my underlying irritations, sadness, despair, anger, reclusion and much more. The coach gently guided me and told me about the signs the horses showed. Took them and me quite some time to fall into movement of the stagnant pent-up energy of ages. I suddenly said:” maybe a sixth horses is needed to get something started.” The coach laughed and answered that a sixth horses is arriving soon.

After quite some time, the first horse went away to take a dump. A second one followed and a third, controlling the others dumps first if everything was seen and put away, than took a dump too. They went frequently to drink and when I said they have to drink to clean up, they reacted with validation. My grandmother was there to help. And finally one of the two new horses came by my left side to stay. She was there to support me and I burst into tears with words: ” Finally someone at my side.” During the whole session all five horses continued eating, some as if their life depended on it. A bit of a funny fact because in my youth, all we ever did was eat, lots of food. Mother was an outstanding cook and my father backed the finest pies and cakes.

At last we spoke about my children. And when telling about the quarrels with one of them, two of the horses got into heavy fight showing anger and aggression, sad moment it was.

Before going away I had to great each horse separately and I did with heartfelt gratitude. Especially the mare with the hind legs problem and the gelding with the back problem. Wanted to do something in return so let my hands do the work. The mare accepted and so did the gelding although for a short time letting me know that I was there for myself and not for him.

The mare had pointed out that there was a healing to be done. We went inside and I got one. At the end I received a special stone which worked in an instant on my heart – the place to be – more specific – the feminie heart on the diaphragm.

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In the evening pain started – the healing on the two horses – their energy had to be cleaned and could finally, on Monday, send back. Now my pain of all that had come to the fore during the horse coaching came and I still have it with me – slowly fading away. Got some interesting information about the fact that I was part of a twin but born alone. On top of that  the way I was born –  a blue baby almost dead due to the umbilical cord around my neck. The insights are tremendous on physical, emotional, mental areas and behavior.
Here are just two of the facts:

1. The alone born twin will be left-handed and/or ambidextrous – the definition of true ambidexterity is being able to do a task equally well with either hand or with both hands at the same time. Funny because I wrote this quite some time ago without knowing the above:
https://redskywalkeronearth.wordpress.com/2019/08/13/left/

2. My love for even numbers

Still processing it all. Many thanks to the horses who worked for and with me helping in my ongoing inner journey. Will go there again when the sixth horse has arrived. After all my name in Chinese says among other things: woman of horse. 

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The past days the bear crossed my path. In words and messages from others and in myself. Was given a gif on Twitter

that reminded me again of a picture I once got from an old dear friend.

Plus it reminded me of a bear tool I made a long time ago. Looked that up and started upgrading it. Implemented the bear tooth I have. Here is bear, the healer of emotions and foundation, the grounding force, confidence and courage.

Furthermore I had to remove some plants and while doing so, a tiny little branch from the stephanotis or Hawaiian wedding flower fell down and I kept it because of its shape. Two weeks ago I bought a Brucit gemstone as I already told in a previous blog. Today the tiny branch and the Brucit had to join forces.

stephanotis derived from the Greek word stephanos’ , meaning ‘crown’. Stephanotis signifies ‘marital bliss’

Both tools are not yet initiated.

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Color Card

In a Tweet on Twitter Dory Nierynck shared some of her color card samples, like the ones she use in this workshop

One particular sample card had my attention, so I asked her the meaning of it.

Today she told me about it and I can say – exactly to the point.

1. peace and quiet, faith, breathing needs attention, more depth necessary, use creativity, especially singing, painting, writing – the blue/turquoise field of the card
2. white – soul level, Higher Self points to
3. all earth related things and activities, more movement needed – the red dot
4. the yellow and kind of military green field, yellow the communication, military green -> being more in nature to empty my 3rd chakra and create room there, balance between creation and being in nature
5. my guides are waiting to see me doing so to get ready to work even more with them as I already do.

This example show that a consult with Dory was worthwhile. Unfortunately Dory Nierynck died in 2020, may she rest in peace.

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After a stressful week some silent days were welcome. Stumbled onto quite some info, from outside as well as from the inside. The bells of future are ringing quietly. As energy flows so signs come up to make the message crystal clear. Two gemstones came to my attention and I bought them. There message alone is strong enough. I bought a Brucit and a Selenite.

Brucit:
Break with old negative patterns, walk your own soul path and enjoy life. With Brucite, the sun shines on every aspect of life. A stone of abundance, of the soul and harmony. Provides perseverance, clarity of thought and the necessary peace of mind to make decisions. At the same time it helps with intentions and achieving set goals. A new future brings with it farewell to the old. We often have difficulty with that. Fortunately, the stone also lends a hand here. It helps to say goodbye to that which no longer serves you. https://happy-spirit.nl/

Selenite:

The white Selenite especially suits the heart chakra. Strengthens intuition, clairvoyance and clear knowing. Strong purifying effect on the vegetative nervous system, including the brain. https://www.semoea.nl/

Yesterday I came along the drawing challenge on Twitter: Monocle octopus against hate. Up to now I didn’t like them. But the urge was there so lets try and draw one. Choosing the color was no problem, it had to be purple with a golden monocle. Here it is.

Wondering why I looked up the message of octopus.

Octopus:innovation, dynamics, change, strong intuition, staying on your path.

So all those things entering my life along with the foal’s horse hairs, which came two weeks ago, ring regeneration and renewal. Let the adventure begin.

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Integrated

Finally the process paintings came back from framing to be integrated in the practice room. Some paintings were removed, their working is done. Painted the wall and put things into their new place. Peace and quiet.

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The process involving my grandmother and the influence this had in the female family line that started May,7 with the process painting now has come to closure.

In a former life of the soul of my grandmother happened something involving a child she never forgave herself for. That child passed on her hate towards her mother through the female line. Grandmother in this life still had self hate because of what happened back than. Me, as caring and open to energy’s as I am, took place in the energy of that child and carried it. As matter of fact this prevented me from really loving grandmother despite she being kind of a protecting godmother to me. I also, passed on by my mother, carried the self hate, preventing self love and forgiveness. Bitterness also developed. Had to do a family constellation to give all of it back through the line and I did, creating a barrier towards the old energy’s. Now I, finally, only have my own energy field left.

The process of the painting? To my biggest surprise the painting isn’t, as I thought, about grandmother – it is me. The message came through  my coach Ria Winterman
“There is something you did not see and it is that middle you worked on….in the beginning it is more outgoing, first not rotating at all, then the movement,and in the latter changes you worked back inside and closed with the walnut.Your own process. Back towards you as you are.” Indeed I didn’t see that.

This brings us to the painting made June, 9th
What was made for a Sunday drawing challenge in fact is connected to the process painting. Also the tool I had made ages ago and no idea what fore. The blue painting is the elaboration of what’s behind the walnut in the process painting. I’m very fond of both paintings and they will be framed as soon as possible and the tool somehow with them on the wall. So far what was going on Monday 3rd with the full moon.

Along this 3 month process I happened to get a newsletter of Irida webshop offering Brazilian Rhinestone . One immediately had my attention and I ordered it. Yesterday it arrived and after a long sea salt bath in the full moon it now enliven my altar. To me it look like a man and a woman are hugging. The assignment to do: who I am now and putting that in writing….

 Photo by Hendrik J.J. Meijer

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