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Doors Pt. 2

From last week onwards there is movement again around the process which started in March this year: doors Pt.1 and my heart is beating overtime.

This morning I read at Pam Younghans weekly for October 18 – 24:

THE EGG MUST CRACK for new life to emerge. This week, the planets provide the energy that will both drive new growth and accelerate the breaking away of old encasements.

thus being the big blue painting.

This evening I read M. v/d Knaap article about the approaching full moon October 20 . In paragraph five there it is, the process I’m going through. A new painting has to be made. The canvas is waiting for about 3 weeks already

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Life exploding – another intuitive spontaneous painting this morning after one I had the drive for in the middle of the night you see next.

This one is the 3rd step in this process. Can you see the white horse? While painting a piece of cellophane fell on the painting and when cautiously lifting it my spirit animal came through. 

the 1st step

the 2nd step

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Afghanistan mirror

As I saw the pictures from Afghanistan and read the news, I immediately thought of the Holy Crusades, ‘Christian’ missionary work and Vietnam. This was due to the fact that the West wanted to teach the Afghans its way of acting while nobody bothered to get to know the Afghan way, the country and the mentality of the people first. To withdraw blindly without thinking about the consequences for the left behind Afghan helpers and their families was further evidence of a heartless approach and a lack of foresight.

Today came a new message from Aluna Joy that is worth reading. The deeply anchored memories of these times of the Holy Crusades, missionary work and wanting to impose your own values onto others now come into consciousness in order to be healed. Another step towards the unity of humanity, which is still a long way to go.

Right now we are crossing over timelines, layered cycles on top of cycles, that are connected to repeating and deeply impacting patterns in humanity’s past. We are now crossing over precarious, multi-layers of memory echoes that are rippling forward into this time. The memories come from the times where aggressive holy wars were being played out. It was a time where spirituality and religion were used inappropriately as a tool to embolden the self-righteous and to empower self-serving leaders.

the entire article

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Doors Pt. 2

In my recent inner process, before the doors can be opened, another healing had to be done first. A long time ago I painted my mother’s pregnancy with me, and as I learned back then, my twin brother. Quite some stories were told around the pregnancy and my birth, different stories by my parents.

Did the healing that had to be done. Will not tell the details. I only share the changed painting. I did the changes today.

 

This was important to finally get more in touch with my own energy field, the blue painting and the doors I mentioned in my previous blog.

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Doors

In an ongoing process, started in March this year, I had to make another painting around the theme of doors. Doors preventing….closed doors….

It’s a prolongation of the painting I made in March.

 

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Cleaning

It’s not only in the title, its done with real cleaning stuff – Blue Wonder cleaner diffuser over turmeric and hobby lacquer in blue, red, white and gold. After that I let it flow in all directions by turning the picture around

Looking at the finished painting – the real cleaning tears came too…..

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This year my Helleborus is blooming like never before. To my surprise I also have a new one, also blooming with lots of flowers in its first year. Why now I asked myself and looked up the meaning of Helleborus. At https://www.spiritoftransformation.com/ I found the essence of Helleborus. All it is supposed to address suites the new era we just entered. Letting go of sorrow, fear, sadness, heart pain and more.

For more information about Helleborus history and medical use look here:

information about hellebores in dutch

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As I wrote here I have to work with the second painting you see there. I did the past days. Yesterday I was busy with another drawing challenge – a winter lake. Not sure how but it had to have a black frame. Found one and pasted it on the water color paper. White glue, pastel chalk, water colors – all in the mix. Finishing touch with icing sugar. Very pleased with the outcome. Something about the painting touched me. Had the feeling it had something to do with the white spot in the black painting. Maybe, slowly but steady, I am going inside and start to see. Not absolutely sure, I asked my coach and she confirmed.

 

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End and backwards

The following painting I did November, 8. I was not sure if it was a personal process painting. Liked it a lot and had it printed. Framed it and set it infront of the wall with my animal drawings. My thought was – root chakra.

During the night of November 23, I painted another black one for an art challenge. The night and November, 24, I had a mild form of hyperventilation. Something was going on.

The reactions I got when posting the painting this morning were a real inspiration and the remarks from https://www.finenwerk.com/ especially helpful and true. Had a coaching session this afternoon and the painting is, indeed, another process painting I have to work with for a while. I have it printed.

The first painting, strangely enough, is the end of the process. The second painting is blocking it. They have to stand side by side when working with them. Old fear, from ages and this life which got suppressed in this life by my parents, implemented a firm pattern of reaction – fear wasn’t there, acting tough.

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Icelandic Horses

Saturday I had my second horse coaching. A gift from two friends. Not much was told about the horses. To my surprise the work would be done by five Icelandic Horses at http://www.comedi-coaching.nl

Last week I had bought one big Icelandspat and 4 small ones – what a coincidence.

The group had two new arrivals in their midst. There was a mare who had problems with here hind legs. She was the first to made contact with me. Followed by a gelding who had back problems some time ago and was recovering. The other three were doing fine.

Like a fine tuned receiver they registered every word I said and reacted with small signs to make clear that it was right what I was saying. Showed my underlying irritations, sadness, despair, anger, reclusion and much more. The coach gently guided me and told me about the signs the horses showed. Took them and me quite some time to fall into movement of the stagnant pent-up energy of ages. I suddenly said:” maybe a sixth horses is needed to get something started.” The coach laughed and answered that a sixth horses is arriving soon.

After quite some time, the first horse went away to take a dump. A second one followed and a third, controlling the others dumps first if everything was seen and put away, than took a dump too. They went frequently to drink and when I said they have to drink to clean up, they reacted with validation. My grandmother was there to help. And finally one of the two new horses came by my left side to stay. She was there to support me and I burst into tears with words: ” Finally someone at my side.” During the whole session all five horses continued eating, some as if their life depended on it. A bit of a funny fact because in my youth, all we ever did was eat, lots of food. Mother was an outstanding cook and my father backed the finest pies and cakes.

At last we spoke about my children. And when telling about the quarrels with one of them, two of the horses got into heavy fight showing anger and aggression, sad moment it was.

Before going away I had to great each horse separately and I did with heartfelt gratitude. Especially the mare with the hind legs problem and the gelding with the back problem. Wanted to do something in return so let my hands do the work. The mare accepted and so did the gelding although for a short time letting me know that I was there for myself and not for him.

The mare had pointed out that there was a healing to be done. We went inside and I got one. At the end I received a special stone which worked in an instant on my heart – the place to be – more specific – the feminie heart on the diaphragm.

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In the evening pain started – the healing on the two horses – their energy had to be cleaned and could finally, on Monday, send back. Now my pain of all that had come to the fore during the horse coaching came and I still have it with me – slowly fading away. Got some interesting information about the fact that I was part of a twin but born alone. On top of that  the way I was born –  a blue baby almost dead due to the umbilical cord around my neck. The insights are tremendous on physical, emotional, mental areas and behavior.
Here are just two of the facts:

1. The alone born twin will be left-handed and/or ambidextrous – the definition of true ambidexterity is being able to do a task equally well with either hand or with both hands at the same time. Funny because I wrote this quite some time ago without knowing the above:
https://redskywalkeronearth.wordpress.com/2019/08/13/left/

2. My love for even numbers

Still processing it all. Many thanks to the horses who worked for and with me helping in my ongoing inner journey. Will go there again when the sixth horse has arrived. After all my name in Chinese says among other things: woman of horse. 

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