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Naar aanleiding van  http://heldenreis.nl/schrijfveren  voor de maand augustus weer eens een gedicht

Nooit meer een spreekbuurt houden
Over een kindertijd vol spoken
Het op eieren lopen van de angst
Wel misschien van dingen die
Toch wel heel leuk waren
Het geratel van de telefoon met draaischijf
De nieuwe hoekbank in de keuken
Met van die kleppen en onder het hoekgedeelte
Een holletje om te verstoppen
Ondanks alles of juist daardoor
Alles overleefd
Het was een lachertje gezien wat later kwam
Nieuwsgierigheid als deugd
Weet ik zo net nog niet – teveel ervan is minder
Het jachtseizoen geopend toen ik vrouw werd
Belanden in het luxe bed van lust en wat zo liefde heet
Ontdekkingsreizigster in mannenland en geen benul geen routekaart
Een goede voorbereiding hierop node gemist
Onbenul vol onbevangen lezen van mijn levensboek
Het grandioze waaien door de dagen
toilet maken voor de looks en de disco en de eerste ridder met of zonder paard
de kans nihil geacht er een te vinden met zo weinig zelfbewust en vol van twijfels
dan toch gelukt een kort geluk
de tweede gauw getrouwd
de tent heel snel vol houten speelgoed voor
de kinderen die kwamen
geen onbewaakte ogenblikken meer
geen tijd voor lezen maar wel schrijven
dagboeken vol
ook onverzamelde gedichten zo nu en dan
diep van binnen de wens ooit een boek met mijn naam op de rug
maar ach, met kind en man
nog steeds die hoekbank van weleer
zaten wij te eten
het tafelzilver van mijn ouders in gebruik
en hun servies
geen geld maar wel de geur van munten ruiken
wie het kleine niet eert….
huisvrouwenslavernij zo dacht ik toen
dan brak de pleuris uit
de man bleek al twee jaar een verhouding te hebben
met een kleine middenstandster
ik wil niets weten
ik wil niet vragen
mijn hart is ijs
strooiwagens vol liefde zijn verdwenen
we gaan verhuizen

halve maan mes waarmee familieperikelen geheeld worden

en energetische banden verbroken


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The reception of the flow of intuitive information is getting better. Where I mostly acted without knowing why I had to do something to find out it was right weeks later, now I get it almost instantly but only if I need to know. So is the case with the tool I made June 5.

After receiving en reading the message of Aluna Joy on June 7, the insight came immediately – the tool has the same message but there is more and I have to work with it for more information. Tomorrow the tool will be initiated. I’m excited about what might come up.

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When I visited my friend for a birthday celebration I got, once more, a beautiful branch from Kerria Japonica Pleniflora.

Kerria japonica – Yamabuki – lit. mountain breath – a Buddhist symbol for mono-no-aware

Beside the branch I got three top pieces from the gourds, symbolism here , my friend makes her rattles of. This morning, in a flash, I got the inspiration so I started working on a new tool. It got a piece of amber at the top.
Also the antler, I recently bought, got a make-over with gold and silver and  a lizard on it too.

Deer totem’s and their antlers bring the message and meaning of higher connection and awareness. Antlers act as spiritual antennae. The lizard animal totem is also a reliable messenger from the spiritual realm.

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The inner child

We started talking about the last Aluna Joy message. From there we came to the blue tool I had made but could not get to the meaning of it up to now. To get a good picture of it my coach looked into my blog to find it but every time landed on the post about the seal. During the session it got clear why. Finally she came to the blue tool. Now the flow started and it was like a tremendous water fall – unstoppable.

We had to start with the seal. I had it positioned on the inner child table and that was the right place for it to be. Had to take it. And the blue tool. How is motherhood? “I’m the mother of my inner child and always was and I’ve a wonderful tool made of it.” I repeated.

I had to hold it together with the seal and my belly got very heavy.

“Thats right but there is a little part of the adapted inner child that has not grown. This part is preventing you from getting your energy flowing and trusting your intuition. This part has to grow up. What would you say to it.?” ” First that is why I put the seal on the inner child table and sealed it with Lapis Lazuli.The adapted child part I will tell that everything is okay now and that the time has come to go further as a grown up person. Childhood is over. If there is something the inner child want to tell me that’s okay but it does not has to. Everyday reassurance will help too.”  Thus this is the reason I had to finish the seal with the lapis lazuli. Suddenly I knew that this part is laying in the top of the motherhood tool.

I also remembered a case I read about in the book of Dolores Cannon.

The case was a female healer who consulted Dolores for her problems with her knees among other things. A big energy entered the room and explained to both that this is the energy the healer channel when working with patients and that this energy contact the unconscious to work together on insight and healing. The painful knees are due to the fact that the healer is afraid of the big energy. “So maybe my knee problems come from the same fear?” I asked and the answer was yes. The grown-up woman and the inner girl are confident, happy and curious to work with this energy and often surprised about what develops but the inner adapted boy part is not.  As a child I maybe was clairvoyant and therefore so afraid of the dark and nobody to talk too. ” Those talents you have of channeling this energy and being clairvoyant are very old.” Here the non signaled that she was connected to this too. Simultaneously I remembered two family constellations with all this as theme I had in France in 2003 during a soul week there. ” There also is violated trust in people who made you go away to rather talk to animals and plants.”

“How to go further now?”  “magnesium muriaticum can help and you have to hold the mothertool and look THROUGH the blue tool and that will make all flow, your heavy belly too.

” I hope that I get this all straighten out before I die and done my work that I’m supposed to do this time around.” “You simply will not die until you did.” she laughed.

There I got the urge to ask about my guide I know the name of for so long and how he look like. I told her the name and ….laughter…. “So that is the energy that is with me since I’m talking to you. Yes the name you know is right and he looks like you were described by that psychic you knew.” my coach said. That was the moment when I burst into tears – so glad that he is there helping to get everything clear. She let me cry. “There is a lot empathy coming from him towards you. He says you have to be patient, a part of you is so impatient. ” Thats right, I answered, I will do better.”  “The medical sports training is okay but the trainer is awful.”  “Keep sporting but switch trainer.”  “I need the male trainer for the inner boy part to grow up.” “Yes.”  “What about loosing weight?”  “That will happen when getting the adapted inner boy part to cooperate.”

Here the flow stopped and the session finished. I feel intense happiness although it was a long session and, as I said, a waterfall of information. The new road finally is unfolding.

Maybe the next influential event is the New Moon Solar Eclipse on February 15. The Inside Degree says:

A man laying stones for a path.
If vision and practical skills are brought into a place beyond either one, new worlds can come into being. Tenacity is the key. You have to see the pattern, inscribe the pattern, and let it set collectively. For when you are out ahead of everybody else, you must master the craft of timing in this Earth. Everything is perfect in the right time and place and awful when out of sync. Contained within yourself is the blueprint for the future; you need to season and temper the extraordinary forefront awareness with life-experience, and discover the intricacies of the cultural landscape. A mission pursued, a task taken on with a vengeance. A destiny that stands out and speaks volumes.

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The last two nights I dreamed that I have to save and move my golden hearts energy. The 2nd night my inner man and woman were working together in this. He was moving the gold and when attacked the woman stepped in with some yellow tools. This morning I had the following message in my mail you can read at http://www.alunajoy.com/2016-aug-6.html (open with SHIFT for not leaving my blog)

It took a while to read the text but when almost at the end it got easier. Two of my tools came to mind. One I made with the August eclipse 2017 and one I made quite some years ago. If my understanding of the text is correct those two tools together are the symbols of it.

The left one is the grand opening you can read here
and the right one is the rooting of the heart. I found the branch precisely as it is now – I only cleaned it, gave it color and initiated it.

When you read the message from Aluna not every word is necessary. What is meant for you, you see and you get that tickling feeling underneath your throat. Than you know that it is your passage to read. Strip away unnecessary stuff. Also it is necessary to realize, that not everyone has a golden heart energy. Your personal heart energy might be different and has another color. Your heart energy suit your souls assignment in this life and the stage of your souls development up to now.


The article of ALUNJOY definitely caused a break through.The tools mentioned above are suiting my process initiated by the message. I feel like learning to walk again and trust my intuition more and more. And I learn to trust on the fact that my creations somehow sometimes are made for times far in the future like the tools of lately and the seal and the heart root I made years ago. The path work started again and will continue with a new appointment with my coach February, 1st .

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Today another coaching hour for myself. After one week with enormous heart rate when I thought my heart and head would explode. A second week with the start of new volunteer work that actually is real fun because by doing it, I can help people to get their new start.

In the meantime I already had seen an article from empoweringastro.com where the connection of the upcoming New Moon with the August eclipse was mentioned. I made a tool that eclipse day. And this tool took center stage today, figuratively and literally. And an article came along on Twitter about Pluto in the natal chart .

But first things first. Pluto in my natal chart is in the 6th house. So what came up in the beginning of our conversation was about sickness and what this mean for me. It’s all about loosing control – my fear of sickness mingled with a last little bit of my wish to go to heaven again. Sickness as a sign that something needs attention and not as a guilt trip. My feeling about the maybe-explosion of my big heart was not far-fetched – the ongoing transformational journey now has reached the next stop: my heart. To let everything flow into the high heart – taking responsibility for my SELF.  Now the tool.

I had to hold it. The day I made it and when I initiated it, because of its length, it looked like an old-fashioned crutch.

There is an old saying: ‘ walking with your soul under your arm ‘ and that is the top shell with the gold in it on top of the tool. The three small ones – I had to feel it – they are my parents and my grandmother, now supporting me in my quest and I have to take them in with love because they gave me life. Here the message came that the three are really over to the other world now and therefore able to send positive energy finally.” So after all it’s a crutch in some way. Hold the tool.” I took it into my left hand, closed my eyes and there it was – not under my arm to be positioned but in front of me, right in the middle. ” It’s my spine and the curve is precisely underneath my heart and if I turn it around the curve goes right into my heart.” “That’s it, my coach said, the energy has to come into flow to your heart and not be blocked anymore, taking full responsibility for your souls’ journey, yourself and love yourself in all that you are.  By the way – I had to say out loud that I am proud about myself and what I managed to heal…..was not easy.

What can help the process is Plantain

Plantain grew massive around the Municipality planter I’m gardening. My neighbors thought of it as weeds and it had to go….The latin name of the plantain is plantago lanceolata. Lancelot who fought for love and whose name meaning in celtic is son of fate.

That all was the drive to bring man and woman together in their new home: my golden heart.

Let’s keep one eye on November 20. That’s when the Sun in its last day of Scorpio squares the degree of that big total solar eclipse of August that crossed America from ‘…sea to shining sea’ at 29º Leo. These are trigger points releasing over time more of that reset energy. If you have planets at 29º of most signs, you will feel the effect most strongly. New Moon November, 18

Inside degree for LEO 29
A broken sword.
Consecration to a higher power. The giving-over of the personal will–the marvel of root change. Coming to the end of your own path, and it is just the beginning of the greater way. The heart must open. The infinite must be born inside. The destiny-necessity is there–so much karmic backlog. So many ways to be right and to be wrong. The realization in the very midst that there is nobody listening to the old tale and everybody is awaiting somebody else to come through. A profound and utter doorway into a great unknown. What has been is finished. What shall be is so very different. And what is now is a question and a prayer and a destiny that must find its redemption.

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Today was full of action due to endless telephone calls, mails, a coaching session and, of course, a treatment by Annelies Beschoor-Plug. But first things first.

The coaching session: We both started short of breath so a calm start was necessary. First we talked about the last treatment by Annelies and the tool I made about this. I told her about my decision for no operation gall bladder and what good information I’ve got from my general practitioner. During my conversation with him he also said that his concern was more about the steadily rising alkaline phosphatase info in dutch

In short the alkaline phosphatase works on your bones. A high level is normal after a fracture but not when nothing is broken. End of October another blood test to see if the rising is still going on. Then a visit to an internist will be necessary to see what the reason is. When talking about the bones, the session really started. Problems with bones have a deep-rooted, inherited angst of deficiency, hard to believe it ever will be okay. There is often a deep despair with bitterness and disappointment as result. This also can affect the liver and gall bladder.

This all rang a bell because I often hear myself say “it’s all useless!” As a matter of fact one of the angles Neptune make in my birth chart has to do with this angst for deficiency in each and every way. In younger years I had an enormous storage room full with everything you possibly might need and an enormous loaded freezer. The money shortage of the past years also a result of this. It feels like running a maze, a hamster in a hamster wheel and not seeing the way out.There has to be a positive mantra: All will work out just fine!

As I wrote in a previous blog I have to work with this Triangle.

Until now with no success. I also put my ocean jasper into the Triangle – a good move.

Now when sitting in front of the Triangle I have to hold my anti-pain – tool which works on the legs with the theme of going towards a new future.

Fun fact – more or less – : I’m playing Candy Crush and for weeks now I wasn’t able to get through a certain level because I don’t play on Facebook so one can buy extra things. And also while trying to get through I repeatedly said: it’s useless. After the session I mastered the level…. 🙂 I got the telephone call that I was accepted as worker at ‘home administration’ from https://www.meerwaarde.nl where people in financial trouble can get help. It’s volunteer work. I’m good in creating order in chaos.

There is a homeopathic remedy for this theme of deficiency. In the afternoon a good treatment by Annelies Beschoor-Plug.

Hoped for some rest, peace and quiet afterwards but no way. I had to sign a lot of papers coming in by mail as curator for my client. Part of all the sudden rush during this day maybe is the finally forward motion again of Pluto.Live is on the move again too. Off the maze!!

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