Feeds:
Posts
Comments

Archive for the ‘Love’ Category

Pelican

For a drawing challenge called #animalalphabets a Dalmatian Pelican was asked for. I looked it up and liked the wonderful bird I saw, so I joined the challenge. To my surprise, I was able to draw the bird – that’s a first. Wondering about this fact, I looked up the spiritual message of the bird. The first thing that came up made me laugh because its an old treat I met long ago and let go.

Looking further there is a rich meaning to the bird, like the Phoenix.

Also attentive to topics such as helpfulness and family spirit. Even though you may feel alone and helpless, in reality you are not, because someone is always watching over you and saving you from the worst.

This already came up during the conversation on Twitter I wrote about in my previous post. And that is absolutely true, I’m not alone. I’m protected by spirit and Angels and my Guardian. Furthermore precisely what I partly accomplished concerning adulthood and love. Self-employment and teaching – the next stepping stones. So no wonder I was able to draw the beautiful bird.

You cross the threshold from child to adult and become a teacher from the learner. It’s about a step into self-employment. It is also a step into love, into selflessness and thus a step into awakening.

totem animal Pelican – german website

the pelican

Read Full Post »

Little girl

Still going on the portrait challenges by @StudioTeaBreak. I like it very much although not every portrait is to my liking. So I happen to notice that if my heart is in it, the drawing or painting flow easily and are better. The last portrait challenge was a little girl.

 Ellen Mary in a White Coat, painted in oils on canvas by Mary Cassatt around 1896

wholeheartedly I started with water-color pencils and finished it with water-color. Made a photo and made some adjustments in Adobe Creative Cloud.

Seeing the final outcome, a little girl in the snow was the intention, I noticed a lot of figures in the background.The longer I looked the more I saw and got the feeling that I painted my inner little girl with all the guides and ancestors around. It’s more me then Ellen Mary. She is wearing a blue coat after all and that’s the color I wear most. The yellow and red are some of my favorite colors too. What a painting can do….

Read Full Post »

secret

Yesterday afternoon the inspiration to paint. After a short meditation I choose to use the sentence that give one roots: I am <your full birth name> born on <date> at <birthtime>

Started painting, choosing the colors with eyes closed and painted. Everything is done with eyes closed – this way the soul can take over to show what needs to be shown. When no more colors or moves to be made the painting was finished.

I saw the rest colors on the plate. Took a new paper and put it on the plate, pressed it down and made a turn with it. Another painting was born.

When seeing what came out I had to put the two together. It’s like me and him….

After all was done I draw cards – one for the inner child and one for the grown-up….amazing.

Read Full Post »

Medlar

Spirit works in mysterious ways. Yesterday I saw a detective series within the detectives wife is going to make Medlar’s Jelly. She told her husband the detective: “ It has to be made by rotten medlars….” and his face expression was hilarious. This morning the thought process around Medlar’s Jelly started, above all the mention that the medlars has to be rotten….The Medlars Jelly is described as utterly delicious and beautiful to look at – amber with pink highlights and very glossy.


Even Shakespeare wrote about the Medlar in Romeo & Juliet:

Now will he sit under a medlar tree,
And wish his mistress were that kind of fruit
As maids call medlars, when they laugh alone.
O Romeo, that she were, O that she were
An open-arse and thou a poperin pear!

Further my thoughts went to ‘rotten’ bleeted Medlars. In the state of bleeting it suites transformation – only if we rott we can grow – only if the Medlars are rotten you can make new delicious jelly or jam of them. Same as in life I would say. Surely suiting all the rotten folks in politics and the money world. It all has to become so rotten that there is no further denial possible that it all has to change. Than we can build new livable conditions – making tasty jelly or jam.

Getting more and more intrigued by the Medlar, I came across this:

Medlar (Mespilus germanica):

Message:

“You feel very lonely at the moment, I can help you overcome this loneliness, I help you to be open to new insights and give you the courage to push your own boundaries. You are not alone.”

Light:
transformation; insight; self-confidence; healing; protective

Dark:
capricious, arrogant, fearful, crime,
Element:
Earth; Air

Energetic:
1st and 4th Chakra

Planet:
Saturn; Uranus; Sun

Season:
Spring; Autumn

Medical qualities:
use in case of constipation

Physical:
stomach; intestine; throat

Personal:
provides insight into your own skills; helper to push boundaries

Here I recognized that the Medlar is all around the transition we’re all in, suiting the upcoming New Moon. The retrograde Venus in Scorpio and Libra in this is like the bleeting process the Medlar fruit has to go through before it is sweet jelly or jam. That this little conversation in the detective series had such an impact on me show, that I’ m in the process and that I have helpful companions around me.

As mentioned above – the jelly has the color of amber and amber is all about the heart and love. Only lived from your heart and love sprout a good life.

More about the Medlar Tree

Would like to have one of the traditional Makhila’s made from Medlar tree wood

The Makhila is a wonderful symbol for the Medlar Tree being a protective companion on your path.

The recipe for Medlar’s Jelly

Read Full Post »

The evening before the Full Moon I could not keep my eyes open, somewhere tears were stuck and I had a feeling on my chest as if I was going to have a cold. Went to bed at 22:00.
At 4:32 ‘o clock, right in time, I woke up and had the urge for immediate action.
Downstairs first thing was feeding the cat and made my morning beverages and lit candles everywhere. Sitting at my white dining table, I could see the Full Moon shining brightly.The cat came to lie next to me. Again the hassle with my eyes and a lot of yawning.
I hold the little self-love tool until 5:45 ‘o clock.
Went into the practice room and got on my knees on the white pillow. The Family Thing imaginary in my hands, felt big and heavy. Threw it into the Universal Energy saying that I gladly carried it but nothing to do with it and therefore giving it back. Universe will take care of the energy to go to its rightful owner.Then, finally, the tears came.

The Full Moon did its work. The days after this ritual I felt more alive and more active. My physiotherapist looked at me with the words: “you are much more in your skin and you look more balanced….” . Only thing left to do -> the painting.

Pushing artistic outlet doesn’t work so I patiently waited for the urge to start painting. High Noon today there it was – a quiet invitation….Let my hands move as they wanted until the flow stopped.Here it is – me facing the family and more – it’s kind of good-bye and hello at the same time.

 

Read Full Post »

The Family Thing

On Twitter there was this #Septemeer2018 creativity going on. One painting or drawing a day with the theme the sea. One day, after painting I had a lot of different colors left. What a waste I thought so I put all the left-overs on paper and whipped through them with paper towel and brushes until my hands got no more impulse to move. Let it dry while cleaning the area. Set it against the wall and the immediate thought was: The Family. A heavy kind of thought, theatrical like Cosa Nostra, the Mafia or something like that. As a matter of fact I liked it.

This afternoon, a coaching appointment and no idea what would come up. Just before the appointment I had the insight that I had to use the tool self-love this time.

We indeed talked about what it means to me and if I think I love myself totally. Thought yes but, unfortunately there still is some resentment. Sorted through myself and came up with: “My oldest part does not.”

Not that easy because what’s my oldest part. I thought backward so it had to be the child but that was not the case. The picture of an old woman manifested.

I thought of the above painting and bingo. It is The Family and I’m standing with my back towards them on the right. Why? There is still angst that they influence me in a negative way…. but they don’t, to the contrary. I have to let go of the angst and the leg problem will faint away.

Speaking of the legs….

My physiotherapist, who also practice cranio sacral therapy, had information for me last thursday. I told my coach what she said and based on the confusion I had due to the information, another old karmic thing opened – the oldest part – way way back in the female line of my mother. I remembered a family constellation when I had positioned my mother, grandmother and great-grandmother and me. Nobody talked, nobody laughed, nothing, heavy energy. Until grandmother finally admitted that it was her fault that her son voluntarily went into war and died – which was known by my mother and true. Grandmother after that was able to bow for her mother. great-grandmother asked for the thing and grandmother gave it to her. Suddenly we all burst into laughter, my mother was so funny and able to see me and talk to me – a big relieve in the energy. great-grandmother on her turn gave it back to her mother and so on in a long row. The therapist then suddenly said she saw the one who had this thing first had come and took it back and that it was gone. Obviously this is not the case because today I got aware of the fact that I took the thing and the thing is blocking me.

The thing – very old – evolves around Guilt and Penance – mainly Penance.

Has nothing to do with me so I can let it go. How? “Throw it away with the intention to get it back in the line, into the Universe – it will find its way.”  Second step is another painting where I turn around – it will manifest like the other one above – don’t think about it. It may be an idea to stay awake tonight or wake up before the full moon. Again: don’t think about it, follow the flow.

Read Full Post »

Initiation

Past Thursday, August 30, I finally initiated the new tool. Boy oh boy what an initiation that was!

First I energized a medicine wheel and set down in the middle with the tool. Sage smoking to clean the tool from everything that does not belong. After that the initiation ritual. I ask spirit, mother earth, devas, nature spirits, all elements and kings and queens from the 4 directions North, South, West and East to help channeling the supposed energy for this tool. When the energy entered, I got tremendous pain on the back of the upper body at the height of the heart and from left to right. Felt like a thick bar. Sealed the energy in the tool and ended the ritual.

Started rummaging through the garden, trimming some bushes, when suddenly the bar in my back became a spasm top to toe. This spasm accompanied me for three days slowly settling.

The energy suiting the new tool is, among other things, love for every part of oneself, even the frightened one. Communication with and messages from celestial forces, supporting the trust in one’s vision of spirits and ghosts. The tool thus is a supportive companion in my process to leave fear behind.

Here the tool after initiation.

Read Full Post »

Older Posts »

%d bloggers like this: