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After yoga and meditation it had to be painted. When almost finished I had an inner picture of the painting coming out of something green, like a cloud or so. Had green fabric in the attic. Bit involute to do…..

 

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This is a guideline from Carol Ann Ciocco for the Venus retrograde and the timeline for the second half of 2018. Rang a bell ….

VENUS Rx following MARS Rx
MAKE YOUR GOALS CONSISTENT WITH YOUR VALUES

Over the summer of 2018 – across the tumultuous span of a Triple Eclipse /Triple Super New Moon portal – we experienced Mars Retrograde which was partly simultaneous with Mercury Retrograde.

With Mars Retrograde, we identified a goal-template, action plan or ‘Mission statement’ if you will. We may not have done this consciously (most of us probably didn’t); however the circumstances of our life brought forth the quandaries and blocks, the emotional outbursts, ah-ha’s and deep knowing that created a sense of what ‘go’ means for us.

I.e. at the end of August you said to yourself “In September I am going to do (this). It’s time. It’s what I want to do”. And then you most likely came up with a couple of action steps to take, which you may have taken. But most likely, the plan you came up with has sort of died on the vine. Maybe your energy bottomed-out in September. Don’t beat yourself up for that. It is right on target with the arc of energy that is happening now.
You see, we are now in the midst of Venus Retrograde – it began on October 5 and remains through November 16. The ‘aura’ of Venus Retrograde was very present in September.
The timing opens up the opportunity for a real and essential soul-searching that will have a profound effect on our life path. The back-to-back timing of Mars and Venus Retrograde is kind of like a 6 month Tony Robbins seminar where the pumped-up tele-guru asks: WHAT IS HOLDING YOU BACK AND WHAT ARE YOU GOING TO DO TO CREATE THE LIFE YOU DESIRE???

With Venus Retrograde you will discover the core values that will en-spirit into your newly decided vehicle. Mars is the fuel. Venus is the GPS. The timing is excellent.
In addition, Mercury Retrograde weaves through this process in a way that is almost symphonic. Mars and Mercury Rx overlapped during the summer; and Venus and Mercury Rx will have a precise hand-off or baton pass on November 16, 2018 – creating an elegant gateway and overlap between the energies.

Here’s the rhythm:
Mars Retrograde – June-August = Will
Mercury Retrograde – July-August = Mind alignment with Will
Venus Retrograde – October-November = Heart
Mercury Retrograde – Nov-Dec = Mind alignment with Heart
=ALIGNED & SYNTHESIZED TRINITY OF HEART, MIND & WILL

Put another way:
What do I want?
I make up my mind about it
What do I value?
I think with my heart to navigate

And another way:
How can I get what I want?
A new state of mind is necessary
Where am I out of alignment with my desire?
For answers, I soften my mind with creative awareness

You will then synthesize and align this trinity of awareness for a new outlook on the who what when where and why of your life, beginning in January/February 2019.

As I said above: You have a vehicle (your life). Mars is the fuel. Venus is the GPS.

So, from October-December, it’s time to think about all of these things (and the info in my previous posts on Mars Retrograde) and see what comes forth in the way of a master plan and new vision for your life going forward.
For now, nothing to worry about except navigating the annual hectic end-of-year holiday rush. But please do pay attention to your internal process – triggered, as always, by those things in our lives that stir us up. That is the data to mine to emerge more enlightened about your journey.

Here are some purely academic exercises for you to work with between now and the end of the year.

Mars Rx – Goals
develop an intentional and clear vision including:
goals
mission
purpose
vocation
passion
personal values (see below)
personal definition of success
unique talent

To help with this, here are some questions to ask yourself. These questions come from astrologer Phillip Sedgewick:

1. Review all standard modes of action for alignment with the intended result. You know, is your approach compelling or off-putting? Can you get more bears with honey than vinegar? And, why do you want bears?
2. Consider if those things you unconsciously seek actually fit your big picture aspirations and dharmic claims.
3. Establish a highly motivated engine burn for all things that summon your attention and passionate creativity.
4. Pause in the face of knee-jerk reactions prior to responding.

Venus Rx – Values
what matters most to you
what you want your life to look like
how you want to feel
what brings you joy, peace, satisfaction
What makes you happiest? – Working with others?
Being in nature? Hitting deadlines? Having personal freedom?
Come up with some key words…

Values keywords Example:
clarity
purpose
connection
creativity

To help with this process, here are some questions. These questions come from astrologer Phillip Sedgewick:

1. Ask yourself what you truly need.

2. Contemplate your resources, merit and worth, both tangible and intangible.

3. Value your intangible resources with greater ferocity than the tangible. After all, those things intangible and of your nature will never go away unless you ignore them.

4. Establish your personal criteria for what is it you need, what is it you want, and the justification system in place regarding both.

5. Determine your place in the social structure of life. Cut out things that do not fit. Include yourself in supportive and stimulating circles.

The process will unfold (unconsciously), even if you don’t sit down and work with it, meditate with it. But if you do consciously engage, you will reap great rewards, both within your life and for your spiritual evolution.

Irish pt 2

In my post Irish I told about a little tool. It waited until today I had the inspiration….

Some years ago, I got a big mother of pearl shell as a present.June 24 this year I got a little shell as a present from a very friendly lady who was hired to make nature-friends with the children. Yesterday, I put the two together. Today the little Irish fellow mingled too. It had to be this way.

Medlar

Spirit works in mysterious ways. Yesterday I saw a detective series within the detectives wife is going to make Medlar’s Jelly. She told her husband the detective: “ It has to be made by rotten medlars….” and his face expression was hilarious. This morning the thought process around Medlar’s Jelly started, above all the mention that the medlars has to be rotten….The Medlars Jelly is described as utterly delicious and beautiful to look at – amber with pink highlights and very glossy.


Even Shakespeare wrote about the Medlar in Romeo & Juliet:

Now will he sit under a medlar tree,
And wish his mistress were that kind of fruit
As maids call medlars, when they laugh alone.
O Romeo, that she were, O that she were
An open-arse and thou a poperin pear!

Further my thoughts went to ‘rotten’ bleeted Medlars. In the state of bleeting it suites transformation – only if we rott we can grow – only if the Medlars are rotten you can make new delicious jelly or jam of them. Same as in life I would say. Surely suiting all the rotten folks in politics and the money world. It all has to become so rotten that there is no further denial possible that it all has to change. Than we can build new livable conditions – making tasty jelly or jam.

Getting more and more intrigued by the Medlar, I came across this:

Medlar (Mespilus germanica):

Message:

“You feel very lonely at the moment, I can help you overcome this loneliness, I help you to be open to new insights and give you the courage to push your own boundaries. You are not alone.”

Light:
transformation; insight; self-confidence; healing; protective

Dark:
capricious, arrogant, fearful, crime,
Element:
Earth; Air

Energetic:
1st and 4th Chakra

Planet:
Saturn; Uranus; Sun

Season:
Spring; Autumn

Medical qualities:
use in case of constipation

Physical:
stomach; intestine; throat

Personal:
provides insight into your own skills; helper to push boundaries

Here I recognized that the Medlar is all around the transition we’re all in, suiting the upcoming New Moon. The retrograde Venus in Scorpio and Libra in this is like the bleeting process the Medlar fruit has to go through before it is sweet jelly or jam. That this little conversation in the detective series had such an impact on me show, that I’ m in the process and that I have helpful companions around me.

As mentioned above – the jelly has the color of amber and amber is all about the heart and love. Only lived from your heart and love sprout a good life.

More about the Medlar Tree

Would like to have one of the traditional Makhila’s made from Medlar tree wood

The Makhila is a wonderful symbol for the Medlar Tree being a protective companion on your path.

The recipe for Medlar’s Jelly

Yesterday started making this new tool. It’s made of a branch of fig tree and the little hats from the first acorns my home-grown oak tree delivered after 6 years. The little hats look like little satellite dishes.Colors purple and silver.

Fig tree: initiation old school, enlightenment. Acorns and Oak: The oak forms is the gateway to the Other World. The tree shows the extent to which you have confidence in following your path and your life destination. Element is air. Acorns are abundance. In the past, the value of the forest land was determined by the number of pigs that could be fed by the oak on that land.

The evening before the Full Moon I could not keep my eyes open, somewhere tears were stuck and I had a feeling on my chest as if I was going to have a cold. Went to bed at 22:00.
At 4:32 ‘o clock, right in time, I woke up and had the urge for immediate action.
Downstairs first thing was feeding the cat and made my morning beverages and lit candles everywhere. Sitting at my white dining table, I could see the Full Moon shining brightly.The cat came to lie next to me. Again the hassle with my eyes and a lot of yawning.
I hold the little self-love tool until 5:45 ‘o clock.
Went into the practice room and got on my knees on the white pillow. The Family Thing imaginary in my hands, felt big and heavy. Threw it into the Universal Energy saying that I gladly carried it but nothing to do with it and therefore giving it back. Universe will take care of the energy to go to its rightful owner.Then, finally, the tears came.

The Full Moon did its work. The days after this ritual I felt more alive and more active. My physiotherapist looked at me with the words: “you are much more in your skin and you look more balanced….” . Only thing left to do -> the painting.

Pushing artistic outlet doesn’t work so I patiently waited for the urge to start painting. High Noon today there it was – a quiet invitation….Let my hands move as they wanted until the flow stopped.Here it is – me facing the family and more – it’s kind of good-bye and hello at the same time.

 

The Family Thing

On Twitter there was this #Septemeer2018 creativity going on. One painting or drawing a day with the theme the sea. One day, after painting I had a lot of different colors left. What a waste I thought so I put all the left-overs on paper and whipped through them with paper towel and brushes until my hands got no more impulse to move. Let it dry while cleaning the area. Set it against the wall and the immediate thought was: The Family. A heavy kind of thought, theatrical like Cosa Nostra, the Mafia or something like that. As a matter of fact I liked it.

This afternoon, a coaching appointment and no idea what would come up. Just before the appointment I had the insight that I had to use the tool self-love this time.

We indeed talked about what it means to me and if I think I love myself totally. Thought yes but, unfortunately there still is some resentment. Sorted through myself and came up with: “My oldest part does not.”

Not that easy because what’s my oldest part. I thought backward so it had to be the child but that was not the case. The picture of an old woman manifested.

I thought of the above painting and bingo. It is The Family and I’m standing with my back towards them on the right. Why? There is still angst that they influence me in a negative way…. but they don’t, to the contrary. I have to let go of the angst and the leg problem will faint away.

Speaking of the legs….

My physiotherapist, who also practice cranio sacral therapy, had information for me last thursday. I told my coach what she said and based on the confusion I had due to the information, another old karmic thing opened – the oldest part – way way back in the female line of my mother. I remembered a family constellation when I had positioned my mother, grandmother and great-grandmother and me. Nobody talked, nobody laughed, nothing, heavy energy. Until grandmother finally admitted that it was her fault that her son voluntarily went into war and died – which was known by my mother and true. Grandmother after that was able to bow for her mother. great-grandmother asked for the thing and grandmother gave it to her. Suddenly we all burst into laughter, my mother was so funny and able to see me and talk to me – a big relieve in the energy. great-grandmother on her turn gave it back to her mother and so on in a long row. The therapist then suddenly said she saw the one who had this thing first had come and took it back and that it was gone. Obviously this is not the case because today I got aware of the fact that I took the thing and the thing is blocking me.

The thing – very old – evolves around Guilt and Penance – mainly Penance.

Has nothing to do with me so I can let it go. How? “Throw it away with the intention to get it back in the line, into the Universe – it will find its way.”  Second step is another painting where I turn around – it will manifest like the other one above – don’t think about it. It may be an idea to stay awake tonight or wake up before the full moon. Again: don’t think about it, follow the flow.

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