Wednesday, January 10, I start with medical training and therefore need a sports outfit.

Not something very difficult – buying a sports outfit….at least I thought and went to BRISTOL HOOFDDORP to buy it. Sports clothes are on sale after all.

I found sneakers and 2 T-shirts. After that, I searched the training trousers to find something in XXL (size elephant). Not in the lady’s department so I grabbed a black one in the men’s department. Same joke with the young girl at the cashier about the size elephant. Everything in a bag and I went home.

Today  I  wanted  to see if I had to shorten the trousers, removed the labels – and then I saw this:

Packed it into the bag again with the cashier bon and went back to the store. There the real nightmare started.

I put the trousers and the cashier bon on the table and asked if I could get my money back because of the holes. The manager looked at me and looked at the trousers and said: ” I do not believe you bought this trousers yesterday in our shop!! This is an old one. Unbelievable you buy a new one and want to return an old one!”

 “I bought this trousers yesterday. It was hanging nicely between all the others, labels on it and on a hanger. As far as I saw the only XXL so I tuck it. Today I saw the damage. I have no reason to lie to you. I have the labels at home.” “Yeah you can bring them together with the real trousers you bought yesterday.” I kept saying that this was the trousers I bought but he would not listen. ” I send an email to headquarters that you cannot try this in another Bristol shop and I make a photo of the bon and the trousers.” he ended.
He called security after I said I would not leave unless this was solved. I had to leave the shop.


In the 65 years I live, I never ever lied about anything.

The only possibility that this is an old sports trousers: an employee of the store switched his own trousers and put the labels on it and on a hanger and there it hanged nicely between others.

I never ever think about such things and therefore not got suspicious. Even more because all labels were on the trousers.

I’m the victim of the scam and € 19,99 poorer. I will never ever set foot in any Bristol unless this will be solved.

UPDATE January 25

After many emails finally the region manager decided to refund the money. No excuses, only for the fact that it took so long.


New Creation

The Solstice Day inspiration knocked and here is the new creation with a seed shell.

New Moon Seal

This new moon will be a stunner because its like sealing a time period with a seal.

How things will work out look what the Red Thread was in 1990 and then work on a higher vision of this Red Thread.

After reading the complete article the realizations. I finally know for what purpose a made a wooden Seal years ago and the Red Threat 1990 . Here the seal.

The Read Threat: marriage, motherhood and who am I. My youngest daughter was born that year and opened my eyes to me and my life when she just could crawl. She found ‘ Siddhartha ‘ and threw it towards me with the word look. After reading the book no one in the house knew where it came from,I started my own quest. First thing divorce and after that all kinds of courses, therapy and searches. As a matter of fact everything took a different turn in 1992. I discovered that I was worth doing some good things for myself. Motherhood transformed. I found a good job and moved house for the eight time. Not everything turned out the way I expected but that’s how spirit works – everybody get what the soul is longing for not the ego.

The crown of all experiences – me being curator over a Sagittarius person in the stress who I managed to get a complete new start after two and a half years – sealed and well. I have a Sagittarius son and the new moon falls on his Sun precisely 26 degrees Sag as the new moon. Quite a turn for him.

I have this new moon in my 11th house – finally my long-term=goals can come true around my profession in the world and working together with others.

I wish you and me all the luck possible.

UPDATE 31-12-2017:Seal now got its final touch: 2 Lapis Lazuli’s from http://www.atelierlazuli.nl

My wishes to you


Another year in its final days.

A year not that easy and for some plain turmoil in each and every way.

Next year will be better, different, new  – all astrologers tell.

And sure, the winds of change are blowing, but each one of us has to decide to blow with it or not.

The weather is right – what you do with it is up to you.

Follow your heart & soul.

All the best for you and thank you for reading here.

Be blessed with your true colors.



Grand opening

Today another coaching hour for myself. After one week with enormous heart rate when I thought my heart and head would explode. A second week with the start of new volunteer work that actually is real fun because by doing it, I can help people to get their new start.

In the meantime I already had seen an article from empoweringastro.com where the connection of the upcoming New Moon with the August eclipse was mentioned. I made a tool that eclipse day. And this tool took center stage today, figuratively and literally. And an article came along on Twitter about Pluto in the natal chart .

But first things first. Pluto in my natal chart is in the 6th house. So what came up in the beginning of our conversation was about sickness and what this mean for me. It’s all about loosing control – my fear of sickness mingled with a last little bit of my wish to go to heaven again. Sickness as a sign that something needs attention and not as a guilt trip. My feeling about the maybe-explosion of my big heart was not far-fetched – the ongoing transformational journey now has reached the next stop: my heart. To let everything flow into the high heart – taking responsibility for my SELF.  Now the tool.

I had to hold it. The day I made it and when I initiated it, because of its length, it looked like an old-fashioned crutch.

There is an old saying: ‘ walking with your soul under your arm ‘ and that is the top shell with the gold in it on top of the tool. The three small ones – I had to feel it – they are my parents and my grandmother, now supporting me in my quest and I have to take them in with love because they gave me life. Here the message came that the three are really over to the other world now and therefore able to send positive energy finally.” So after all it’s a crutch in some way. Hold the tool.” I took it into my left hand, closed my eyes and there it was – not under my arm to be positioned but in front of me, right in the middle. ” It’s my spine and the curve is precisely underneath my heart and if I turn it around the curve goes right into my heart.” “That’s it, my coach said, the energy has to come into flow to your heart and not be blocked anymore, taking full responsibility for your souls’ journey, yourself and love yourself in all that you are.  By the way – I had to say out loud that I am proud about myself and what I managed to heal…..was not easy.

What can help the process is Plantain

Plantain grew massive around the Municipality planter I’m gardening. My neighbors thought of it as weeds and it had to go….The latin name of the plantain is plantago lanceolata. Lancelot who fought for love and whose name meaning in celtic is son of fate.

That all was the drive to bring man and woman together in their new home: my golden heart.

Let’s keep one eye on November 20. That’s when the Sun in its last day of Scorpio squares the degree of that big total solar eclipse of August that crossed America from ‘…sea to shining sea’ at 29º Leo. These are trigger points releasing over time more of that reset energy. If you have planets at 29º of most signs, you will feel the effect most strongly. New Moon November, 18

Inside degree for LEO 29
A broken sword.
Consecration to a higher power. The giving-over of the personal will–the marvel of root change. Coming to the end of your own path, and it is just the beginning of the greater way. The heart must open. The infinite must be born inside. The destiny-necessity is there–so much karmic backlog. So many ways to be right and to be wrong. The realization in the very midst that there is nobody listening to the old tale and everybody is awaiting somebody else to come through. A profound and utter doorway into a great unknown. What has been is finished. What shall be is so very different. And what is now is a question and a prayer and a destiny that must find its redemption.


         Those two were hanging separately on the wall.





Now they have a home together.

Question of my life

What woman are you then? 

Then…when then….*sigh*

Then -> I’m somehow will be passionate inspiration to inspire
with a valid birth certificate
unintentionally – unconscious– acted in many ways
changing like a chameleon-woman until now

a complicated birth process

needless to say  and obviously – always

my longing for the other world

I’m a visitor here – can you imagine that?

You can?

Than tell me -> what kind of  man or woman are YOU ?




n.a.v. de schrijfveren van Hella Kuipers van 24 – 31 oktober



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